terrible october!

i know my weaknesses,but just can't help things from crashing,i knew days like these would happen, but can't avoid it from happening. bad things happening this month are way much more than the good things.my emotion lost control frequently this month,i don't like to talk lately, i choose to remain silent. Am i still the way i used to be?i dislike this feeling..hope it's better next month, coping more on assignments and you'll be back!probably having lack of sleeps, nowhere i could place my lust and missing something too much that i used to have, these little little bits accumulated and driving me crazy.i just had to say this again:i hate this part right here!